I think hipsters can eat a dick

There's something about New York City. It's like different air-people there are beautiful. They're stylish. They give off an 'i don't give a fuck' attitude but can be totally friendly at the same time. Everytime i come back from there i have to sit for about a week or two just to realize i'm back in normal life. During this last visit, my friends and i went to the uber hip dance night for underground scenesters: MisShapes. The minute you walk in the door every 19-30 year old is donning the latest clothes, makeup, and hair trends, and there's a photographer on hand just to capture the moments. After the drunken night, i checked www.lastnightsparty.com to see if my picture got on the website-it sure did; except i was making rediculous faces and poses while everyone else looked almost pretentious in their steady and serious positions.
Looking at these pictures and thinking about these hipsters' lifestyles, i am completely fascinated. They're beautiful people and they seem to be extremely popular with everyone at the club, with every photo website, hell-with the entire city of New York. So i'm wondering, what makes them different? Why am i not popular like that? Is it because i sit at home most nights watching Lifetime instead of going out? Is it because i'd have more fun playing a round of flip cup and singing along to Alkaline Trio with the BCM than showing up at the right hot spot? Or are these hipsters really not different at all?
I feel like a little high schooler wanting to be just like everyone in the well-known crowd and wanting to hang out with them. But then i stop to think-i do know some of these people. I know kids that go to TaxLo, DJs at the Ottobar, the photographer for the Citypaper's Face-a-Day and they're all normal people! We eat at Taco Bell, watch movies in bed, and act like any other person. So maybe this hipster look is all just an image i see-posing so seriously in their MisShape photos, happening to know a friend who's a new designer so they can wear their new duds, going to clubs because that's what there is to do in NYC-and other times they're fine with getting together to watch an episode of Project Runway too.
So maybe i'll tell myself i'm an elusive hipster. I know where to go and who to meet, but most of the time i'm much happier sitting around not having to keep up with that. Besides, i look at Vegas' www.napkinnights.com and www.spyonvegas.com and the 'hipsters' in these photos seem a little trash-o for me.