Ways of a Woman in Love
I was at work, complaining to a customer that i don't like Johnny Cash or Nirvana, and how most people think that means I should be burned alive. He agreed, but also recommended reading Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Cocoa Puffs. It's a collection of essays on Chuck Klosterman's views on life. So far, i've gotten through 3 chapters, and so far-pretty good.
The first chapter was hilarious. He writes almost as funny as the guy who does the Superficial. Anyway, this chapter is about how he will never find a woman to satisfy him. Nor will he ever satisfy a woman. Because everything in life-movies, books (i guess those are everything in life)-tells us love should be perfect. Nothing really bad happens, you end up together, bla bla bla. So girls come to expect that guys do certain things and visaaa versa.
So, as Zach Morris did in a College Years episode, I've concluded every guy is different-one guy loved to take me to dinner, one guy didn't ever have money, one guy would hold my bags while shopping, one guy refused to go out with me. So in the long run, i have to keep adjusting how i will get treated with somebody new.
I know what i like in a relationship-and i really know what i don't like. I guess i figure nobody's perfect so i'll be satisfied with part of a guy, but really hate other things he does (or doesn't do). Then it just ends up making me mad because the negatives usually outweigh the positives. So, like Chuck, I will never be truly happy with a man.
Do I swallow my anger and annoyance for every guy and brush my shoulders off at their dick moves? Or do I forever remain single and at least be pretty damn happy with myself?
And while i'm on the subject of bitching, and not in the mood to think of another clever title for a separate entry,
It's very easy to tell whether a guy does or doesn't like a girl. If you want to deny that because you're all "caught up"-understandable. But i will, time and time again, insist that if a guy is willing to choose his friends over you multiple times, doesn't care if you're upset, says he is way too stressed and tired from work or school to see you, and doesn't want to have sex very often-he doesn't like you. What's more annoying than him not liking me (because that's crazy. everybody loves me) is that guys who do this insist i am crazy and 1. they are not doing anything out of the ordinary and 2. of course they still like me.
I know this is a fail-safe way to judge, because i used to be like these guys. I came up with tons of excuses when I didn't like a guy anymore yet still wanted the company. And also because as soon as a guy like this and myself stop seeing each other, he is a completely different person with another girl. Suddenly he wants to go out, kiss in public, post pictures of her all over myspace, return calls on time. So if I seem crazy and mad, it's because they make me that way. They insist everything's fine-when i know it's not. I don't understand it, and it angers me a lot. I probably stick around crazy and mad a little longer than i always should. Oh well, a learning experience every time, right?
Damn, now Nirvana's on the radio.