My apparenlty good enough for you to be reading about.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Road Trip

So I've asked around to find out what wonderful sights i can see on my journey from Pennsylvania to Nevada. I think I've decided I can get the fullest joy out of making my way down to Tennessee and going across. Someone had suggested seeing the Devil's Tower and feeling weary around Close Encounters of the 3rd Kind area, but I can't make it up to Wyoming. I wouldn't mind seeing the Mall of America, but I plan to avoid the cold. So Amarillo Texas, Albuquerque New Mexico, Memphis Tenn. and a possible paddleboat ride across the Mississippi River are on my list. Hopefully, more to come...

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Wakeup call

Reason # 342 i loved my last year of college. Maybe it was because i was in my "i'm single and i need to make lots of friends" mindset or maybe i just did whatever the hell i felt like because i barely had any classes left. last night, at 1:30 in the morning, i got a call from my co-host of indie rocker's ball just to say he missed me, the show's been crappy without me, and he wants to hang out the next time i'm up. College was 4 years of drunkenness, hilarity, and meeting random, good people. i'm so damn glad i went.

Friday, February 24, 2006

MySpace Tracker

What a bunch of bullshit, almost as much as Lupe's (or whatever her name is) speech on Project Runway this past week. The beauty of Myspace is it's anonymity, and the minute somebody creates a program to completely ruin that, the minute Myspace will suck even more than just because of it's stupid advertisements and porn junkmail. If I wanted to look at someone in ten different views, find out what they're favorite music is, and figure out what interests them-I'd go up and talk to them. But guess what? I don't, because just like everybody else, we're not going to waste our time talking to everyone at a bar, and we're not going to embarass ourselves trying to find out more about the cute ones.
Ya ya, so i did set it up so that i can see who's reading this right now-but it really doesn't matter to me. It's just nice to know how many other people are bored and then laugh when i realize who they are.
So go ahead, MySpace, have your stupid tracker system. With 17,000 hits i'm so popular I probably won't even have time to go through one days worth! (Ya..right) So what if my ex boyfriend's girlfriend finds out I look at her page once a week-I can still laugh at her 300 miles away. And so what if i look up 3,909 cute boys in Las Vegas and they can see it-if they don't like my page, they wouldn't like me in real life anyway so i won't be wasting my time. What are the kids in York that hate me going to think when they see that I look at their profiles-probably continue to make fun of me as much as they do now.
Maybe i'll just delete my account, but then how would I track who's visiting my page?

Thursday, February 23, 2006


I was thinking the other day about how many different things I've done in my life. The opportunities I've had and what I've succeeded at. I also realized none of them have ever been too big of a deal to me. I was a music major in school but i didn't hang out with any fellow musicians. If somebody was like, you know..Ashley, the oboe player. They'd say, is she in SAI? Well then i don't know her. Or the fashion shows i did; i always felt awkward being the only non-fashion major and knowing absolutely none of the other designers. That didn't mean i wanted to get to know them though. I was involved with the TV station and the Radio station, but I never hung out with their crowd or went to the "crew baseball games" or banquets. I put shows on for 3 years but I didn't surround myself with only scene kids. No one respected me in the scene, and i didn't really care.
I've never wanted to kiss ass in the things i do. I didn't bow at the feet of my conducter so he could love me, I didn't show up at every local show just to keep up my popular image. I didn't attend all the meetings or events of organizations i was in. I never wanna be the person who has to try to fit in.
Sometimes I think, why couldn't I have been popular with the Hanover punk rock kids? Why didn't more music majors want to come to my parties? I've won awards for almost everyone of my accomplishments, so it's not that I'm not good. I think about real musicians, real designers, people who work to try to be a VJ for MTV, and i worry-maybe I just don't have passion about anything. I'm content with being pretty good at a lot of different things, but there's nothing in my life that strikes me as so important I'd need to immerse myself in that culture. That's why it's really difficult to decide what I want to do with the rest of my life. Or maybe i just have ADD.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Baltimore Inked

Seth Ciferri of Read Street Tattoo did a really awesome job. No spiderweb behind her, but she does have a stick that ripped apart her shawl and bugs ate the leaves and the roses in her hair, so ya...she's tough! You know when people say you're a different person once you've lost your virginity? Well, i wouldn't know, haha..just kidding, but I feel as though I'm a different person. I'm one of those "I have a tattoo on my arm now" persons. It may be no big deal to boys, or even to girls who have always pictured themselves looking good with any kind of piercing or tattoo. But now I look at the mirror and think, am I going to look as pretty at the beach? In a really pretty gown? In my wedding dress? I really don't think so, but I think the tattoo is really pretty and I'm going to learn to accept the new "tattooed Ashley." And try to date boys that think girls with gypsys are hot.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

I've been dying at this...

Friday, February 17, 2006

If pharmacy school doesn't work out...

I've been learning a lot about the law at my job.
And with the help of this:

"Call me Steve"

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This is me right now. Without the bad teeth and uncombed hair....wait, without the bad teeth. My boss just brought us the infamous Berger Cookies from Lexingont Market. Awesome!

The Draft

I know mine's got a lot to say:

Rick and I watched "Happiness" by the same guy who directed "Welcome to the Dollhouse". The opening scene is so hilarious-it's a breakup. Hs's pretty pissed about it, but it is just wonderful and hilarious to see him say, "I'm champagne. And you're shit. You'll be shit until the day you die."

Thursday, February 16, 2006

King Tut

Well, i walked along Howard St. today looking for King Tut Jewelry. Unfortunately, i couldn't find a Valentiney present such as a Cadillac pendant whorthwhile enough at Lexington Market, so i decided to venture to City Paper's recommendation of Best Place to Buy Bling. Unfortunately, i walked 2 blocks in the wrong direction of Howard St and people were starting to get scarce, so I thought i'd try on another day. But I did find a store that sold a bling "motorcycle watch" where the motorcycle covered the face-for a mere $20!
I also took the first step to getting my next tattoo. Which is a big step-this one's different. This one's visible! It isn't like my others, as Rick the Dick says "getting a tattoo where my mom can't see it." I'm nervous, as I should be-but who cares! i'm young, i live without regrets, and i'm pretty excited about it! If you're wondering what it might look like, here's an idea:

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Reed all about it

I love playing the oboe. I hate making reeds. It's more like-i don't mind making reeds, but the fact it takes about 4 hours to maybe get a good one really frustrates me. I try to excuse myself now, thinking I work too long of a day, I don't have any performances, and I'll get back into one day. I usually don't open the Charles Double Reed Newsletter, but he has some advice for me. So...."reeds can be fun!"

In our part of the U.S. - the North Country - winter has many meanings. Yes there's shoveling and dangerous driving. Not so enjoyable. But, never forget that winter brings great opportunities as well. Unique playing, building: energetic fun opportunities! Just like reeds. Yes, like reeds. I know players who dread reed making, do it out of need, slog through it on their way to the good stuff - playing. I'm here to tell you that it doesn't take a radical shift in perspective to find the opportunity for enjoyment in reed making. Dive into your reed making with the same gusto you reserve for performance and discover the gifts that await you there. One of my favorite sayings with my students is this: You have a bunch of mantras you repeat to yourself such as: "I can't do it", which seems to be a favorite when they approach a difficult new challenge. Why choose that one? I challenge you to change your mantra today. "I can do it", "I can enjoy this", "I want to make this fun", and three goods ones to begin with. But the best ones, I'm sure, are the ones you'll discover once you get to the business of enjoying your reed making.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Part Deux

I don't think I've ever hated Valentine's Day. When I was single, when I wasn't, when a valentine is 7 hours away...I just love the day no matter what. It's a reason to wear pink and red, feel okay about eating chocolate, and spread your love around to everybody. I know I'm sounding real cheesy right about now, but I love getting a funny card, some chocolates, maybe some holiday socks from my mom. Maybe a funny card about stinky farts from one of my siblings. Apparenlty lots of Myspace picture comments. I don't know if it's the reason for the season, but my ex and i started talking, an old "flame" randomly messaged me after 4 or so years, Rick tells me he won't be a dick and ditch me but will come and sing at karaoke, and who knows what else will happen before the end of the night (especially with a 2-4-1 drink special). So even if all the single people out there think it's a reason to hate life, I love it. A
lright, enough w/ the cheese. Did somebody cut some around here? Did a spider bark?

Happy Valentine's Day Y'all

Your Candy Heart Says "Cutie Pie"

You always seem to have a hot date, even though you never try to meet anyone.
A total charmer, you have a natural appeal that keeps you in high demand.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: multiple dates with multiple people

Your flirting style: 100% natural

What turns you off: serious relationship talks

Why you're hot: you're totally addicting

Monday, February 13, 2006

V-Day Monologues

I don't hate Valentine's Day, probably because I've had an awesome Valentine most years i can remember. But, i did find this pretty funny and can think of someone I'd want to give them to.

Things you won't see on Hallmark cards:
As the days go by, I think of how lucky I am
INSIDE: that you're not here to ruin it for me.

If I get only one thing for Christmas,
I hope it's your sister.

Congratulations on your promotion.
Before you go though, would you like to take this knife out of my back? You'll probably need it again.

I've always wanted to have someone to hold, someone to love.
After having met you, I've changed my mind.

I must admit, you brought Religion in my life.
I never believed in Hell 'till I met you.

Looking back over the years that we've been together, I can't help
but wonder:
What the f___k was I thinking?

I always wanted to be rich, powerful, and well respected.
And while I'm dreaming, I wish you weren't so damn ugly.

Sex with you is like using drugs:
Lots of people do it, but nobody's stupid enough to admit it.

When we were together, you always said you'd die for me.
Now that we've broken up, I think it's time you kept your promise.

The holidays are a great time to be with family.
Of course, your family won't be with you, since I'm taking the kids and moving in with my sister, you cheating bastard!

We have been friends for a very long time,
let's say we call it quits.

I'm so miserable without you,
it's almost like you're here.

If you ever need a friend...
buy a dog.

Congratulations on your new bundle of joy.
Did you ever find out who the father was?

Friday, February 10, 2006

Bottom Line

I am so sick of people thinking every person, this country, and this world owes them something. Life is unfair-I'm sorry, but most of us have learned to deal with it. We work, make money whether it's a small or large amount, and try to live our life in a way that makes us happy.
Some people think it is their right to complain about life to the point that they want to sue anything and everything they can. Sometimes because they can't or don't want to have a job, sometimes because they have 10,000 kids and wonder why they should pay for them through support, and sometimes because they just think everyone should feed them with a silver spoon.
"Bottom Line"'s annoying.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Baby bye bye bye

I threw away a teddy bear last weekend. A teddy bear a boyfriend had given me. It felt weird-not because i'm attached to the ex, more the bear. It's so cute, soft, and cuddly. But i thought a little girl from Toys for Tots might appreciate it more. I don't care about the meaning behind the object anymore, so why's it wasting my space? I don't usually do New Years Resolutions, but following Hilary's "Nothing to Lose Year," maybe this will be my "Let Go of Crap" year. Emotionally and physically. I wanna be like my dad who could pack up his life in the back of his car and go anywhere. And i shall do it-without any ties, regrets, or baggage.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

"I'm a Carrie"

I'm watching the latest episode of Sex and the City tonight thinking how right SJP is. She says there's nothing better than hearing your friends laugh at your new boyfriend's jokes. I introduced the boy to my good friend this weekend and was so happy that they absolutely loved each other. As we're sitting at lunch I realized how lucky I am to have the type of friends that will start any welcoming conversation on what he does and what he likes no matter who i bring to them may be. I also realized how lucky I am he is as excited to meet my friends as i am to introduce him to them! No, he may not be my sister's new brother-in-law, but at least I'm not Miranda trying to figure out a date's mixed signals.

Are we not....scenesters?

Hey look Robert, now you're on one of those hip photo websites too. With more than just our faces touching like we'll make out soon!
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Hey, so am i!
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Man, you guys were right when you said my hair didn't look too good that night.
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Valentine's Day Gifts

Please tell me someone else has seen the commercial for these:

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Holy Water

The day started off pretty nicely today-with a bottle of champagne at the office! We're talking only 1 grade lower than Krystal-this was the $70 range bottle...i finally got to taste some expensive/nice stuff. (I couldn't tell the difference). My new boss also adores my hair color (which is a relief, and funny cause i don't really like it.)
I also got to take a walk to the court i saw my cousin! But also where people commented on my sweater, skirt, coat, and hair. I already feel pretty awkward with compliments, but this was 10 times more embarassing because my boss kept saying, so..what's that? number 9 compliment for the day?
But on the way back I finally found where the "sistah" stores, salon, and fake hair shops are. Now I know where Steve and i will be visiting Monday!!!

Wednesday, February 01, 2006


I'm not going to deny that the "underground hardcore/emo" music scene has changed from 6 years ago, and from even 3 years ago. Sure, now these bands can be scene on MTV, you have to attend a stadium or large club to see them perform, and it seems everyone I went to high school who had no idea about this kind of music then but is in love with Fall Out Boy, Alkaline Trio, and Hawthorne Heights.

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I could always go to a show and know right away which guys were in the bands-sure they were older and a little dirtier, but mostly because they seemed so hip on the trends. Well the fans were bound to copy their roll models. So this "fashioncore" isn't based around all the 15 year olds, it's all these kids trying to look like the bands who are the basis of "the community". I do agree that it's a shame everyone looks the same now, but i also find it ironic these hardcore fans are using "Scenester Space For the Masses"-My Space to get across a non-scenester message.