The imaginary boyfriend

Talking to a coworker today, he said "my boyfriend-he's it. i don't have the imaginary boyfriend in the back of my mind anymore." you know, the guy who says what you wish your boyfriend did or who gets you the perfect present you thought your man would. I don't think i've dated a man without the imaginary boyfriend. For example, with my dates i'm always fishing for compliments. Like when i get all dressed up and he doesn't say anything i have to go "so, don't you think i look cute today?" my imaginary perfect man would have already said that. Or maybe i'm just a huge drama queen, like "why didn't you call me back right away? What could you have possibly been doing?" The imaginary one would have either called me back at the right time or apologized at my angryness.
So being that this "man" has alway been in the back of my mind, I've had to accept the fact that no one i date is perfect and I have to deal with a few things like forgetfullness, non-good-gift giving skills, stubborness, etc.
I've written blogs before about, when is it time to just stop accepting these faults and just give up on the guy? Well, when is it time for the guy to stop dealing with my constant drama and questions and just give up on me? I know i'm a good girlfriend in a lot of aspects, but thanks to my sensitive and attaching nature, I am a pretty bad girlfriend with...well attachment and getting upset over everything.
My boyfriend pointed this out to me and I've really been working to change it. But as he said to me tonight, 'why are we together? You're controlling and make me feel guilty about everything'. i told him i really have been trying to change, but i guess there's only a certain extent to which i can. He's the only guy that hasn't bothered to put up with it. I can't blame him for it. I'm just waiting for the one guy i meet that is the one. That is my imaginary boyfriend so i don't have one in the back of my mind. Maybe then i won't be a dramatic, overly sensitive, annoying, bitchy girlfriend. Or maybe this imaginary boyfriend is just someone who is willing to put up with it and loves me for even being that person.

The famous..Mr. Claw

I rang up the lady from 40 year old virgin yesterday.


oh, and also the guitarist of

Hehehe

I'm glad this is the headlining story in the Las Vegas paper today!

http://www.reviewjournal.com/lvrj_home/2006/Aug-18-Fri-2006/news/9130007.html

Being fucked in the ass

I've got a $600 payment due on my credit card. And the percentage just jumped to 35%.

Some treasures in the city

Upon looking for some good restaurants to apply to, i found a website listing lots of old, enjoyable places to eat and drink in las vegas. I can't wait to go explore!

My Birthday

I have amazing roommates, generous and absolutely fun friends, and a totally rad family. I got text messages and calls galore even at midnight of the 4th to say happy birthday.
I started the day meeting up with Xander and Jade at Circus Circus's "Adventuredome" aka...an inside themepark in one of the ghettoist casinos. Since it was my Birthday, my friends agreed to do everything i asked them to. Like Xander wearing a poncho around the whole day (and getting lots of stares.)


We then headed to Chinatown for some awesome scallops and saki bombs!


Picked up some champagne to celebrate


On the way to the bar, we stopped by the Las Vegas sign and happened to see a Vegas showgirl there



Then we headed to the Fartbar (actually Art Bar, but much like Fartscape, it needs renamed.) There was an outside First Friday afterparty so it was pretty fun. I met guy who went on MTV to get his face changed to look like Elvis, had some dude to acrobatics, and met a homeless 55 year old man who was also celebrating his birthday. He smelled to much for me to hang out with him though.



Then we headed to Big Johns and met up with my coworkers and a bunch of other really rad people. From the looks of me looking awful, i was quite a sloppy drunk.






(don't worry, it's my bathing suit!)



The scariest part of the night was me walking by a bush, hearing a radio, and then looking down to see a goddamn human foot.



It was a totally eventful birthday, I loved having fun with my friends, and I thank them so much. I may be an old bitch at 23, but it feels good!

The Cling-on

I'm a very clingy girlfriend. I wish i didnt have to say that, because it makes me pretty annoying, but it's totally true. I like to talk to my man at least once a day and see him as much as possible. I've dated boys exactly like this so I've been able to feed the habit of spending the night with someone all the time, laying around on weekends together being lazy, and always having something to do and someone to talk to when in a relationship. With my last boyfriend, i forced myself to make other friends and go to parties by myself so I could maintain another life when things ended and so that I could be a stable, well rounded, not so clingy person. I'm kind of seeing a guy now that is the quite the opposite of my usual clingy boys. He doesn't mind if we don't talk everyday, he likes to see me but doesn't think it's too big of a deal if we go a day or two without hanging out. At first I took this as an insult, but I just have to realize that some relationships are a lot more casual and not everybody needs to spend 24/7 with each other. I don't know if I'm going to be able to change my habits and personality to get used to it, but I'm going to try. As Chad yelled at me the other day, it won't be the end of the world.